March 22, 2011 – Paper Plates
Hmm…Thoughts on staying home…Just returned from KS
yesterday. I’m always so relieved to be
home, and on a high the first night, just to be back in my own space. However, the reality settles in the next
morning. I am at the mercy of my kids
all day. My house is neither clean, nor
my kids easy to please. It seems like
almost everything I do is for them, but the only feedback I get is whining or complaining. Get Wyatt dressed, make breakfast, work out (and
feel so blessed to be able to do so), Wyatt down for a nap, do laundry, fix
lunch, clean up lunch, go to airport to watch airplanes, grocery store, Wyatt
down for second nap, pick up Bman from school, more laundry, clean kitchen,
make dinner, baths, stories, and bed.
We stopped by to see Brett at Disaster City (his workplace) since we were so close, as
we were already at the airport. He comes
out of a crowded office building with so much going on. I can tell we are interrupting him, but he is
pleasant anyway. Sometimes, I wish I had
the immediate gratification of completing a job and making someone happy because
I did so. However, today it was like
this…I pick up all of the paper plates on the floor and put them away, go to
the bathroom, only to find plastic baggies everywhere, because of course Wyatt
can’t put them back in the box he pulled them all out of! It’s funny that when I leave the house, I forget there
will be paper plates all over the kitchen floor when I return, because Wyatt
got them all out again. I just can’t
seem to do a job and not have it undone, sometimes even before I finish. It kills my motivation a little. Okay, a lot.
I fantasize about a clean house and having more time to
myself. I know, I know. It goes quickly. Not in the span of a day, it doesn’t.
I remind myself that God is my boss and I am living to
please him. Make sure my husband feels
loved and respected. Be kind to my
kids. Make sure they are clothed and fed
and safe. This is my means for
sanctification. Oh, Lord, please help me
do it with a joyful heart. I know how
blessed I am, but that doesn’t seem to keep me from getting tired of picking up
paper plates!
I read in a book once (a fiction book for all that) one of the girls was asking the cleaning lady (?) how she could be cheerful working cleaning up other people's messes, and she said she can rejoice in cleaning the toilets because there is a toilet to clean. As that particular one is the bane of my existence, it helped me a lot. Whatever you do, work at it with all your might, as unto the Lord. These reminders are good, Heidi. Thanks.
ReplyDeleteThanks, Caroline. Your comment reminded me of a similar response to the same question (about cleaning up after people) in Blue Like Jazz by Don Miller: "If we are not willing to wake up in the morning and die to ourselves, perhaps we should ask ourselves if we are really following Jesus." It is a good point. For me, I think there is a disconnect between picking up paper plates or cleaning toilets and dying to self. But, really, that is what it looks like. Dying to self certainly doesn't look as dramatic as it sounds in the dailyness of life!
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