Sunday, August 18, 2024

Different at Night

She's different at night. 

The daytime people don't know her. When there is no one to smile at or sing to, she goes far away, stands on top of the world and looks down to feel the largeness of space and brevity of time. Her face tells the story even when words are far from her mouth.

When they do come, she confirms what you thought you heard her say... It's almost over. My heart is giving way. Jesus will take care of me and he will take great care of you too.

In an hour or so, she wants to brush her teeth, shave her whiskers, and yes to wiping her face. Her friends are coming in a few hours. 

She sinks back to sleep, right up until her friends walk through the door. 

She pinks up and smiles. 

Kisses and hugs and stories fill the room followed by more and more people with their own kisses and hugs and stories. Like a movie of her whole life where the characters from different chapters bump into each other for once and for all.

She performs her favorite song surrounded by an audience of a lifetime. Her head nods and she sports a knowing smile. Her hand taps and the words stumble out or go quiet when they get confused or don't match what that guy is singing so well.

In the middle of the night, I go walking in my sleep...

Chips and dip and margaritas, and they left as they came. Slumber returned before they made it to the end of the hall.

When she goes, she said we'll know she made it to heaven when we hear a big crack of thunder.

Her room is dark, except for the light escaping from the bathroom so we can see her face. She sleeps in her wheelchair, determined not to get back into bed. 

The rumble of a storm approaches with an occasional flash of light. She is laid back and covered and her breathing is slight.

She parties by day but she is different at night.


Thursday, August 1, 2024

Don

Mom decided to turn around halfway to the restaurant. She wanted to sit in the shade and wait for me to bring her dinner. 

A good idea, really...


I placed my order at the bar and sat next to a disinterested guy wearing overalls - Just my type. 

I made my move.

Just waiting on his dinner, he said. 

Taking it home to someone or eating alone and just don't want to do it here?

His wife was in the car.

They were just on their way home from the emergency room. She fell between the toilet and the tub a few days ago and the pain continued to worsen.

Find out what's wrong? 

Found out what wasn't wrong...

Yeah, that's definitely how it goes sometimes.

She's 90 and he's 91. Been married 71 years.

Do you give marriage advice?

He laughed. You made a commitment - keep it. Life happens, and you adjust.

Person of faith? 

Not really. 

But his wife saw their 16-year-old son walk into and out of a room through a wall to let her know he was alright, some time after he was killed in a motorcycle accident.

And Don just sold his motor cycle last year. At age 90. Wife only minded it some.

We're made of trillions of parts, the universe goes beyond the stars, and their two other kids are sicker than they are.

Apparently, William Shatner has a show worth watching called Unexplained. And make sure it's the one with William Shatner. Either there is life after death or there isn't, and worrying about it isn't how he chooses to spend his time.

I thanked him for the visit and hoped I helped him pass the time, and said hello to his wife on the way out. 

It's taking too long, she said. 

I couldn't disagree as she waited-in-the-car-on-the-way-home-from-the-emergency- room. But, it kind of seemed like perfect timing to me.